CD#11

I’m impatient already.

Acupuncture today, and I should see my positive OPK in the next couple of days, so I think that’s pretty good timing.

Otherwise, more waiting.
I’m taking Friday off this week, so I’ll have an extra long weekend. Hopefully that keeps my mind busy and makes the time go quickly.

Feeling a lot of o action this time. Definitely more than last time, so I hope that’s a good sign.

CD#4

I had my first acupuncture appointment today. As nice as it was to go and lay for a half an hour with pins in my feet, legs, abdomen and head, I can’t help but think its a bit hokey. But, I’m going to give it my all. N has been happy with her results and she’s only been going for a couple months, so I’ll wait it out. Will I spend my own cash once our health insurance is maxed out? I guess we’ll have to see.

CD#2

Well, clomid cycle #1 was a bust.
Wednesday I had my telltale lower back pain. Followed by nothing. Slight (and I mean SLIGHT) cramping on and off Thursday, followed by a tiny bit of spotting. Followed by nothing. Then on Friday afternoon, the cramping started, and by 8pm, it was officially official.
For some reason though, I’m not irrationally upset. For some reason I can see through the haze to the other side. I like to think its because we have a plan, but S disagrees. He doesn’t think that CD1 me thinks rationally enough to pin my positivity in that. And he doesn’t mean that in a bad way. It’s true, I am typically unable to form that kind of logical opinion when my hormones are out of whack. So, what does it mean then, maybe my hormones are regulating? I guess I don’t really know…
Anyway, start clomid round 2 tomorrow, then acupuncture weekly starting Monday. And on it goes.

30th time is the charm?

CD#21 – 7 DPO

I’m pretty amazed at how writing everyday is easing my impatience. Seems like 7dpo got here pretty quickly. Hoping the second half of the wait is as smooth.

Feeling really good today. Well rested, happy, feeling positive, plus it’s Friday!

It’s raining really hard right now, and maybe it was my time away from it, in the desert that is Alberta, but I love it. The grey sky just seems to wrap around me and comfort me, and it just feels so clean and refreshing. Just what I need. And as nice as those beautiful sunny Halifax days are, there’s something really homey about a good rain day.

I’m feeling really positive today. I feel like we’re moving in the right direction, and it feels so great to be doing something. Clomid this cycle, clomid + acupuncture if there’s a next cycle, and if still nothing by the end of June, we move forward with a lap to see what’s going on in there.

Appointment

So I had my first appointment with my naturopath today. It went really well. It feels nice to have someone else cheering us on.
So, basically she suggested some diet changes that I should make, which I will do to the best of my ability. She recommended that I change the prenatal that I’ve been taking, as well as add folic acid in a more easily process able form, as well as add some fish oil. She also will suggest that I add vitex if I’m not pregnant, to help support my luteal phase. N gave me the low down on vitex. In short, it’s nasty. But I’ll gag it down if I have to.
We’re also going to start acupuncture on May 7th. Hopefully it’ll end up being prenatal, but we’ll see.
She also said that based on the information I gave her, she feels that clomid may be just what we need, since it did make me ovulate earlier than normal. It could be just the trick to regulate me and get the job done.
Oh man I hope so.

CD#19 – 5 DPO

Feeling better today. S and I talked a bit and agreed that although I don’t want to talk about any symptoms this cycle, I should continuously talk about how I’m feeling.

I don’t want to talk about symptoms because that’s all he has, and my hope comes through, then when it doesn’t work out, he questions what I was feeling. That doesn’t sound totally right, but whatever. He just wants to be a part of it and understand, but I (like almost every other woman TTC) overanalyze everything and justify everything, and make it sound as positive as possible (that’s the endless hope coming though), then it’s not. So it’s hard for him to know what is real and what isn’t.

I have an appointment today with a naturopath to make a plan for acupuncture in conjunction with clomid if I have a next cycle. Let’s hope I don’t, but if I do, at least I’ll have something to keep me looking ahead.

You know, I just realized I’ve spent half of the last 2 and a half years over analyzing symptoms in the 2WW. That’s over one entire year. Imagine doing nothing but paying attention to what your body is doing for a year straight.

No wonder I feel like I’m going insane.

Well that was a stupid idea

So, I tested last night. I thought it would be positive so I did it. No luck, and then S and I were both annoyed and frustrated so we bickered, accused each other of being an ass, and had a really quiet night. Then went to brush my teeth, looked again, and ta-daa! A line! A real one? An evap line? What kind of line is it?!?
Pretty sure it’s an evap, it only makes sense, but since I STILL haven’t started my period, I can’t help but wonder…

Made an appointment to start acupuncture during clomid cycle #2. Initial appointment is the 25th, then we’ll start acupuncture in conjunction with clomid. I’m hopeful that I won’t need to do it, but we’ll see what happens.

Feeling okay overall, even if my period does start. At least we have a plan. 3 clomid cycles, then see gyno for a follow up, and most likely lap surgery to diagnose/ remove endo. At least it’s not an endless road of the same for months on end. It’s kind of nice to see something in the future.